*sipemalas

" i d o u b t m y s e l f "

here's a part of the lyrics for the short n sweet song by coldplay called parachutes..

Here I am and I'll take my time,

Here I am and I’ll wait in line always, always



life's a bit confusing rite now..things r so hazy..i couldnt make decisions, torn between wat i want n wat i need, wat i could do n wat i should do..am not sure if im happy or sad..not really the "come-back" that i was hoping..

n my insecurities seems to be amplified by my..my..something else... did it cost me my sanity? the more i try things differently, trying to sort of improve my life, take a different path n so on the shittier i feel..i know changes arent easy..owh i wish i would know the consequence of my actions earlier before i act them out..guessing the consequences isnt enuf..

n i wish i can read people's mind at times so i would know wat i should do or shouldnt do..hurmm

do i follow my heart my intuition? do i follow my insecurities? do i follow my crippled judgment? any way, i still feel stupid at the end of the day...i still feel lost..i still feel im the loser... because the problem is me myself n i...n how the hell im gona change that..

im babbling again im sorry..

maybe, just maybe, i should give up again..things will b simpler that way..simpler...

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